It’s funny. I’ve written this message 3 times since World of Warcraft beta. The first time was in vanilla WoW. I had been farming Twilight Cultists for rep for about a month (my raid group wasn’t doing very well in AQ20 and had no hopes of AQ40) but I had to have exalted for the stupid mace turn in. I farmed the fuck out of that rep. Going shadow to own shit and then back to holy for raiding. I got my mace, thanked the gods, and promptly took a 30 day hiatus FAR away from WoW.
I still remember the feeling I had when I would sit down at my computer and wonder WTF I was supposed to do now. At the time I didn’t have much of a plan really, not much of a social life so it was pretty easy to get sucked back into the game. I spent all my time not playing the game looking up information on the game… very sad. I came back though, had tons of fun and didn’t have to write my goodbye post for quite some time.
Fast forward to 2 yrs ago when I said my goodbyes to the only guild I had been in since WoW started. It wasn’t an, I’m quitting the game speech but it was a big step for me and my development. I was leaving a lot of people I considered friends. I still miss a lot of them today.
Jump again to Friday when I announced to my raid group, officially, that I was quitting the game. My ego was hoping for cries and mourning and all that hoop-la but it wasn’t quite like that. People wished me the best and that was that. A peaceful ending to a good career playing WoW.
I’m not very good at doing anything in moderation. It’s been the downfall of most of the things I do. I always go 1000% into something and eventually it burns me out or consumes me. I can’t build my life around raids anymore and the possibilities of me playing casually… aren’t feasible. Two of my IRL friends recently quit and I hadn’t really realized just how much it sucks to not have your friends playing anymore. You add up a bunch of little stuff and you wonder why you are still around…
WTB: IRL, pst.
I posted on my guild forums, saying my general goodbye but here on the blog I wanted to take the time to say thank you to some people that have meant a lot to me during my times of WoW.
Disclaimer: You know my memory is shit, it is highly likely I’ve forgotten someone and their feelings will be hurt. Suck it up nancy. I’ve cherished everyone I’ve come into contact with, be it bad or good… I have appreciated those experiences.
My Readers: I wish I could convey to you how much I appreciate everything you have given me since I started. Your feedback and comments mean the absolute world to me. You are the reason I blog. Thank you.
Tapol: I’ve always been a huge believer in smiling. I work retail and my day has been brightened several times by people who simply smile at me and offer a good disposition. Tapol is my sunshine.
Conifer: Level headed and a sharp wit. Always ready to tell me when I need to suck it up and where the tough changes should be made. You’ve had my back and made me a stronger person. Thank you.
Kraylarra: An elitist bitch. I love you hun. Healing to the maximum!
Brigantia: You’ll mean more to me than you ever know. You’ve made me a better, stronger person.
Shiningstar: They say behind every strong man is a stronger woman, that is you hun. Even in my worst you’d listen to me and tell me to suck it up. Meeting you has been a + in my life that I will miss greatly. You’ve helped make this blog better than I could have ever dreamed. You pushed me in ways I couldn’t imagine. If I were into that kind of stuff and you didn’t have a husband, I’d ask you to marry me.
Felada / Kyranna: I’ve known you two longer than most. You helped me get introduced to Leftovers and join the club. A lot of the success I’ve had in the game I owe to you two.
sooo many others who have done so well for me over the years…
Kackler who has given me amounts of fun that are uprecedanted (and I don’t mean sexually).
Kahnti: Ya know, even to this day I hardly remember you in SoW. I just knew that when I left that guild I wanted to take the strongest players with me. You excel in every class you play and I use you as an example to everyone. Your friendship has been a big part of the fun I have in this game and I’m gonna miss you so very much.
Daemia: I’m not even sure if you are around anymore, I know you retired the accounts a lil’ while back. I’ve missed you in the secret channel that Marisse isn’t allowed in. You and Gdawg helped me through a lot of the rough patches in WoW (and Everquest). Laid back and funny, always there to bring a smile.
Relentless: Delinia and Dariar had just xfer’d over to Silver Hand with a bunch of their friends following in hot pursuit. They joined the guild I was in at the time and shortly there after I had a falling out with the guild leader. I left the guild and Dariar and Delinia came with. Then more left and more until we had 20 or so people. I was a bit dumbfounded cuz I had just expected to move onto another guild with Dar / Del and be done with it.
We got liquored up a few nights later (because that’s when you make your best decisions) and formed Relentless. We slowly grew into a bigger guild and I started leading a charter through Leftovers. We conquered tons of shit and did so much. Far more than I had ever imagined. I still remember being scared though that I would fail these people that looked to me for leadership. I took take WoW seriously in regards to the friendships and responsibilities that I’ve had with it and didn’t want to come up short for everyone.
I think I’ve done well. We’ve played hard and had tons of fun. Even during all my crazy bitching and ranting… I’ve loved it. They’ve done me proud.