I’ve been on a downward spiral when it comes to WoW as of the recent months. Each login becoming more and more difficult until it has become a job that I want to call in sick for. You know it is bad when you are considering not logging in for the raid you are supposed to lead and turning off your cell, leaving 24 other people in bewilderment. Then the lil’ dwarf angel on my shoulder (they are smaller than regular angels but super hairy!) talked me out of doing such a bad thing.
I’m mostly sure I’d regret it.
I’ve decided to take a week off from raiding (this week) because I’m quite frankly ready to cancel my account. I’ve talked to a few friends about it and mostly its just been guilt trips on me to stick around cut back my time. They think it is just burnout… which for the most part it is but there is another component.
Even with a reduced schedule I don’t enjoy logging in… and its because of my raiders. It isn’t all of them mind you (uhm… if you’re one of my raiders reading this it most certainly can’t be you whistle). I can’t solely blame them, part of that blame is on Blizzard certainly. They have made the game so easy that a lot of really talented players forget that it still takes a bit of work and focus to kill some of the bosses. You can’t simply show up and stand in one spot DPS’ing the boss while you watch Three’s Company on Nick @ Night (does nick @ night still exist?) Maybe it is only obvious to me that the slacking has grown to an intolerable state.
Each week our raid the struggles has been harder for bosses that we’ve had on farm. Hell, it took us weeks longer to kill some of the easier bosses like Rotface and Festergut than it should have. No longer are we progression forward. We are standing back looking at those succeeding with our thumbs in our asses wondering what is going wrong. We just aren’t wondering long enough to fix it. We shrug our shoulders and say oh well and move on.
Problem is I worry about everything, I sweat the little stuff. I’m not sure if I could live without stress and anxiety but it has turned into me feeling like the errors in the situation are my fault. That I’ve done something wrong (which I’m not saying isn’t possible). I’m just not being fair to myself though.
I’ve always said / heard that if it isn’t fun you have to do something to fix it. That is what I am going to do.
I let everyone know Friday we’d be taking the coming week off (I didn’t inform them I’m considering not coming back though). That our general blah attitude wasn’t going to cut it and it was time to get a bit serious about the issue. If people couldn’t focus for the 5-10mins it took to kill a boss then they wouldn’t be there. I hate nothing more than having to cut friends that I raid with, but it is time to make the decisions that need to be made.
I want to leave you with this song. It isn’t completely related but I’m really in love with it. It isn’t sappy if that is what you are thinking.